Monday, November 29, 2010

Stage Fright

Ok, so I didn't know this was something you could develop!!! Ok so a little bit of background first.... I have been playing piano since like..... before I was in grade school. A VERY long time. And performing never used to bug me!!! When I was like 8-12 years old, I could play an entire concert by myself. But now do you think I could?!?!?! NO! Of course not. Ok, so it has been progressively getting worse over time.... it would be like my hands would sweat before I would perform... and then last year when I was accompanying a singer... (yikes!! don't mess up!) my hands would shake a tad. And then I did something really stupid like let myself play a song for this musical theatre that I couldn't really play that well and BAM. There went all my self confidence. Ok, so then at the end of last year, there was a school talent show. Now I know that your probably thinking "how much did she mess this up". Well, I rocked it. Just kidding I blew it. Well I decided to play my sonatina (the one I was playing for my exam in like 3 weeks) because it was worth the most marks and I KNEW I was having trouble with playing in front of people. Worst mistake, because it has a lot of really fast runs and stuff and it's hard to play that with your hands shaking. And to make it worse, later, this guy that was younger than me played a piece about the same level and kicked butt. (cough cough, a certain someones BROTHER!!!) Anyways, I don't think experiences like that help with stage fright. Now, my most recent episode (well duh, why else would I bring it up?) was at the school coffee house (it's like a thing where lots of people do lots of stuff and yeah...) and..... well I didn't do THAT terribly bad.... But it is extremely hard to play with your hands shaking!!! If you don't believe me, the video tapes me for this cat corner thing (I will explain later) and it will probably be on Youtube. Just fantastic. But I had the hardest time (it didn't help that I went first!)! Ok, if you have never felt it, I will explain it to you. Before you play, you get this really jittery feeling and your hands start to sweat. And I mean REALLY sweat. Then you should never ever announce your piece (I tried it once, doesn't help). Once you sit down, your hands start to shake. Even before you play. Then, as you're playing, you feel your face going red and your ears started burning (like REALLY burning!) And it is extremely difficult to play when your hands are shaking!!! You stumble through your piece and then finally finish and run back to your seat. This symptoms go on for about 4 minutes, then start to calm down. So, now you know that stage fright isn't something you can get over immediately, it just takes a while. And if you develop it, don't worry. It is probably just a stage in your career as a performer.

Monday, November 22, 2010

If I were a rich man (ya ha deedle deedle bubba bubba deedle deedle dum))

Ok, honestly I am running out of topics. But I think this might actually be going somewhere. There are so many songs written about it such as "if I had, a million dollars" or the all time favourite "I wanna be a billionaire SO FREAKIN BAD!!!"But today I am going to go a little deeper into this topic.
     I think, now this is just my theory, but if you worked everyday of your life doing something that paid well, and only bought bare necessities, I think you would eventually get a million dollars. Ok, if you worked hard enough you would probably go way above and beyond that. Now, of course, this would mean not having a car, and buying cheap food and never eating out and buying second hand clothes. Some people wouldn't even consider that living!?!?!  So, now you're perhaps thinking that "I just want to HAVE a million dollars, not earn a million dollars" But now that's not fair to all the people that don't have a million dollars. Anyway, a million dollars would be way to much for me. I would save enough so I could afford school, and nice car, and a nice house and the rest would go to food and water in Africa. Anyway, the chances are so slim of winning the lottery, that I wouldn't buy tickets. Kind of pointless if you ask me. Just funding someone else's wealth. Or, worse of all, you buy tickets through your co-workers and then by the time you go through the whole process and legal stuff you get like 20,000 each. Out of 3 million lets say. So to conclude this blog I'm going to say it's no dream of mine to win a million dollars because I would rather earn it and feel proud. Goodnight and a Merry Christmas to all!

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Comfort Zone

First of all, sorry I didn't post yesterday. I was at my house for like 2 hours in total, over which I showered and stuff like that. Anyways, today I am going to rant about comfort zones. Everybody has a place that they are comfortable with. I'm comfortable at my house, and school (most of the time) and ***'s house and *******'s house and ******'s house and *****'s house.... you get the drift (it's really hard not to put names... but you know who you are!). When people say stuff like "step out of your comfort zone" it's basically doing things your not used to. Now, if you did that every day, then it would become your comfort zone, because you would feel good doing it. Skating is sooooo not my comfort zone, but curling is. Basketball isn't my comfort zone but running is. Get it? Anyway, I think it is good to do things that you aren't comfortable with, because if you didn't you would end up stuck in a room ordering take out everyday because you wouldn't do anything else. Yeah, no fun. Anyway, so that is really all that I had to say, but I'm going to do a half follow up on my uniqueness post. So, you remember me saying how amazing my science teacher is right? Well, my parents were like "you should nominate her for this 'federal teachers award of excellence nomination program' (or something like that) and I was all excited but today I went on there website read more and..... it said she had to be a teacher for at least three years. And this is her second year =( =( =( Which is too bad, but it doesn't make her any less terrific!!!! Anyway, that about sums up my weekend. Some what..... we got whooped in our volleyball tournement..... sad sad sad. Well see ya later!!! ~Jen

Friday, November 19, 2010

Try Me!

Ok, so today I'm going to tell you about my habit. I guess it could be considered a "bad" habit in some peoples perspectives.... but I enjoy it thoroughly. Truly. So this "habit" is doing stuff like little "experiments" when I'm bored. No, I don't have a secret chem lab in my basement or anything, but its stuff like this:

1. Ok, so in science we have these desks that have a bar across the far side, just above chair level. Me and my bestie George (lol!) put our feet up on it and leave them there the whole time. Now, from this I have discovered a few things.....

  • First they go numb. Like the pins and needles kind of numb.
  • Next they go really really hot. It almost feels like your shoes are on fire. Or stepping into a tub of hot water after being outside in the snow
  • After that they go freezing. Like snow cold. So interesting eh???? 
  • Finally they go like a dead-ish feeling. Like they aren't mine??? anyway at this point I take my feet down because it's probably not the best thing for my feet, you know, with no circulation and all. All in the average science class (of course I pay attention! it's just, makes it more entertaining!)
2. The other thing I'm going to tell you about is today, after volleyball, my mom was at the grocery store so I had to wait a while. And as you know, this is Canada in the November so it was cold and snowing and yucky outside. But instead of waiting inside, I sat outside. On the ground. And this was my challenge: how long could I sit there without freezing my ass off??? well, I almost made it the whole 10 min (I'm pretty sure) but my jeans started sticking to the sidewalk so I decided to sit on my running shoes (spare pair) but they didn't make much of a difference. Anyway, I was also playing with the fact that I could see my breath, and how far I could see it if the wind was blowing. And then the wind changed directions!!! I know right!!!! ;)

How to change it: Try new things!!!! Entertain yourself, don't expect other people to do it for you!

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Parental Embarrassment :S

So my 'rents and I (I love when people write like that!!! It's so funny!) we just discussing blog ideas because I couldn't think of one. We came up with this. Because today, at parent teacher interviews (which is held all the teachers in the gym) she embarrassed me in the worst way possible!!! But I am going to build the suspense and make you read all the drier writing to get to the good part.
      I am sure that all of the human beings reading this have been embarrassed by their parents at some point in time. I do admit, some parents are worse than other. As the first born to my mother, I take the responsibility of "teaching" her what is acceptable and what is not. (Note: this should be a responsibility given to all first borns) My mother, thankfully, is very conscious of embarrassing me and for that I am grateful ;) ps. she reads my blog..... But not tonight!!! Guess what she did tonight!!! wait I have to set the scene.... in comic book form!!!!

mother standing with daughter at the last teacher they had to see, after hours of them telling her how great her daughter is... they were having a very intellectual conversation about musically harmony and history, when the daughter said something that was mildly amusing....
(Mother) "I'm sure history will be easier, you just have to know composers and what kind of music they wrote."
(Daughter) "Yeah, but knowing my luck they will expect stuff like 'who discovered the second inversion of a dominant seventh..."
Mother, before she can stop herself, lets out a monstrous laugh which echos in the gym-ish atmosphere. Realizing her mistake she quickly covers her mouth, only to find the entire gym staring at her as if she had grown a tail.....


Ok, I know that's extreme. But I had fun writing it. And she truly did laugh really loud.

How to change it: Ok, so obviously, this section only for parents to use. DON'T EMBARRASS YOU KIDS!!! Please pay attention to things that they say embarrass you and don't to it again.
Kids section: tell you parents when they embarrass you! I'm sure they will make an effort to not do it again, because they were once in your shoes  too!

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Life's Precious Jewels

So, this evening at like 5:30, me and my sister found each other in the hallway getting ready to go to piano/dance and she stopped and said to me "I haven't seen you all day!! I like your hair." Now, this was really surprising, since we do live in the same house, and both of us were home at some point in the day. The only time I had had contact with her previously was while she was in the shower I needed to go in and get something or other. So, that thought was really saddening. I can live in the same house with my sibling and barely acknowledge her existence.
     And that got me thinking. I'm suspecting this happens in somebody's house somewhere around the world on a regular basis, maybe even when both people are in the house. I mean, my sister and I aren't especially buddy buddy or anything (some days far from it) but at least we talk once in a while. Even if it's just a "how was dance class?". So then, what about the siblings that haven't spoken to one another in years?? My dad's brother hasn't talked to him or his twin sister in like 25 years. How depressing! Or the people that have lost a sibling, or a parent, or a best friend, or a close co-worker, or a daughter, or a son, or a grandpa or a grandma and the list goes on!! When you think about it that way, how can you take for granted the precious gifts of life God has given us. It's better to show them how much you care now then regret doing it later when they have passed away or moved on.

How to change it: Ok, so today I have another challenge for you. With in the next 12hours you have to tell everyone one in your house that you care about them (unless of course, you live in a duplex.... then it might not be the case =P). And, I know you have all probably received emails/texts that say "I love you. Send this to 10 people that you love" but it's not the same. Not at all. Next step is to call 2 people you haven't talked to in a while. I know, you have been debating this for a long time, but today is the day. Or send them a letter. Not an email, a letter. L-E-T-T-E-R. Or a phone call. From your home phone so you can actually talk for a descent about of time.


Thanx for reading!!! See you next time!

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

OMG I didn't realize that!!! (P vs P)

*Women goes to the check out for the grocery store* "Paper or plastic?"
*Sudden thought that there should be other options. Women surprises herself by growing to an incredible size and starts screaming STOP THE MADNESS!!!!! WHEN I WAS A KID........ *


      Ok, so I admit, this is kind of a comic book scenario, probably unlikely to happen in real life. And if I could draw, I would add a picture of beautiful hand made art to accompany that, but I can't. So, sorry, but you have to use your imagination. Anyways, the reason I brought this up was today we watched a documentary is science that really inspired me. (I was trying to decide whether I should discuss this or complain about how frustrating math class today, but I like this better =) The documentary was called "Battle of the Bags" (watch now) in case your so inspired by my speech you will further explore this. I would really appreciate it if you stuck around a little longer to hear what I had to say. Trust me, you will learn something.
     Many people believe that plastic bags have come to "a point of no return". They are EVERYWHERE. But the ones I am most concerned about are the super thin grocery bags, or ones like that. I don't think that you could find a person that can honestly say that they haven't seen one on the streets or in the park or even in the ocean. But I'm sure somebody said that about recycling too, but look at how much stuff we recycle today. Anything can happen, especially with the society changing. Now I have to admit, prior to this year I have been very pro-eco or anything. Sure I recycle and turn off the tap while I brush my teeth, but that's because I am growing up in the generation that they teach it as a subject in school almost. But when I actually thought about the bags, and how much we could change just by acknowledging the fact they exist, I started taking a different opinion. Now, we as a household never throw out our bags, we stick them in the cupboard and use them for things like carrying skates or donating clothes and stuff like that. But where do they go from there? The trash? The streets? The OCEAN?!?!?!?!
     Ok, so now is the part where I scare you with the top 10 scary facts that were in this documentary and on the Internet. 

  1. Canadians use approximately 6 BILLION plastic bags a year.
  2. The plastic bag manufacturing business employs 7000 people in Canada. 
  3. Plastic bags are made from polyethylene, which is made from 4% of the earth's total consumption of natural gas and oil. (9 plastic bags have enough fuel to power a car 1km) It is almost  indestructible and made from an non-renewable resource. 
  4. Plastic bags can take up to 1000 years to decompose. 
  5. Every piece of plastic ever made still exists.
  6. Only 1% of all plastic bags are recycle.
  7. About 1 billion mammals and sea birds die every year due to plastic bags.
  8. Canadian plastic bags have been found in Scotland.
  9. Plastic bags clog drains, leading to more severe flooding in some countries.
  10. Sea turtles often mistake plastic bag litter for jellyfish and are killed. Up to 60% of total sea turtle deaths are from plastic bags.
      And one last thing I have to say. It's not impossible to rid the world of plastic bags. Some countries have outlawed it, even some cities in Canada have said NO. It's up to our generations to push the laws and regulations to make the world better and less wasteful. All it takes is education and support and we will soon be able to make the world a better place. (I know, cliche right?) Because the truth is, you only get one chance. And if we screw it up, what are we going to put our children though and their children through. And a toast, to making a more plastic bag free life. Long live the Earth.

(And btw, I am slowly convincing all my friends to start blogs so I will have links soon!!!)

Monday, November 15, 2010

Ouch, Please Help!!

      Ok, so I know how this blog is going to go already. I'm gonna say "you know what? chiropractors are great and you should visit them" and you gonna go "no way I'm not going to cause it looks like it hurts!" Well, let me try and change your mind!!! (evil laugh :P) Ok, first of all, I will agree that SOME chiropractors have a *cracking your back* practice, and I have to say that not all do. My chiropractor, though, has a technique that is unique in the way that he uses a pressure gun (sounds scary, but not) and uses it to make minor adjustments on your spine. And you will be thinking "I don't hurt, why do I need that?" but it's amazing after you go once and you feel so much better!!! It's because when you jerk your back or fall or something, then your entire spine moves to compensate the dislocated part. Which means your spine isn't straight. Which means your whole body has to work around this. (Also, this should be an obvious, but if you can't do something or are having trouble moving, go to your chiropractor!!!)
      Ok, so where this was originally going is I went to the chiropractor today (obviously) because I think I wreck my back. Between volleyball, curling and my new interest in skating, I think it's a little hard on my body =P. I'm to the point where it hurts to stand up or jump or sit down or or or yeah..... So I went to the chiropractor. Wow, I can't believe I just wrote all of that about one little 15min event in my day. Amazing. Anyways, as you could see, I couldn't really think of a subject at this present time so, yeah you got this.
     Oh and one more thing, and I'm saying this because I know this particular person won't probably read this but being on the volleyball team we have all these "gatherings" as a team. Now, this is fine, except for that I'm super geek and everyone one the team is "popular" as in dating grade 12s and buying  $400 jeans.... yeah so I don't really fit. Anyway, so this weekend I was invited to a sleepover after our tournament... with the person who just dyed her hair black if you curious ;)

   OK, that's all I have to say. TTYL!!!!! (oh btw, my how to change it:   promote chiropractors!!!! that is all) OH OH OH and my bestie friendy made a blog and her's is http://www.georgeofthejunglecrazytime.blogspot.com so check it out !!!!!

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Health: Sex. Ed???

People are probably looking at this title going "what the...." but it's something that I have been thinking constantly about. I find the education system in the school SO offensive and I think they don't realize what it's like to be sitting in a classroom and listen to that kind of junk. I think that teachers don't realize that students will believe everything that comes out of their mouth. It drives me insane because 14 year olds don't think for themselves half the time and get in a lot of trouble. Anyway well last year, (grade 8) it really bothered me the things that we were told. They grouped together all the girls and we sat for like an hour listening to all the forms of birth control and how effective they are and yada yada yada.... Then, calling the grade down to the PAC (performing arts centre, for future reference) they explained STD's and how to protect yourself and your partner ect, ect, ect. Sorry, that's not my idea of a fun afternoon. That part wasn't so bad, because I know that there are probably people at the time that may have been slightly considering??? so we sat through that whole thing to benefit like 7 people. Fantastic. 
       Now, this year, that's something different. We mostly talked about dating violence and sexual assault and stuff like that, which I have to admit is kind of a relief compared to previous topics..... But then we moved on to other stuff, and that included a condom lesson. But the thing about that was nothing was optional and they expected you to fill out a form about a help centre you would go if you were pregnant. It was like they expected us to be sexually active. Which I found offensive because at this time, I had already chosen abstinence through my religion and I knew that I was NOT going to use anything I took out of that class. And our final topic was drinking. Wow, talk about insulting. Really, it was more "if you get drunk, the best way to go home to your parents is..." or "don't do this while drinking" and stuff like that, and it was more "when your drinking" instead of "don't drink". Now, I know the reality is most high school kids will drink, but really? I'm only 14, as is everyone else in that class. Honestly, it made me feel like I'm a loner because I don't drink. Now, I'm smart enough to know that that is not true and I know that I am more proud of not drinking than I would be drinking, but I'm worried about the less secure people. Are they really going to know that no matter what the teachers say, not everybody is drinking by 14. So, I'm guessing like now that maybe 25/125 kids have ever drank, so really, the teachers shouldn't be presenting the information that way. I would rather see more "look at what drinking does to you" than "how not to get yourself killed at a drinking party". 

How to change it:  Ha!!! I figured out how to get underline off (punches fist in the air). Umm, this question doesn't exactly fit with the topic but I'm going to attempt it anyway. I think that someone needs to step up and explain to the school board how this comes across in a classroom setting. My personal sex. ed has gone like this:
Grade 5: Girls, I promise your not dying if you find blood in your panties
Grade 6: DARE program, drugs are the worst thing you could do to your body, you will die
Grade 7: What your organs are for and how sex makes you pregnant
Grade 8: How to be safe and healthy while being sexually active
Grade 9: How drinking is expected and how sex is expected so here is how to do it right
Ok, this may be a bit of an exaggeration but you get the gist. Anyway, that's all I have time for, my dad is calling me to wash dishes. TTFN!!!! (ta ta for now for all you non-pooh bear-ists) 

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Wow!

So, I was really surprised by the amount of people that read my blog. When I made a blog, I kind of made it just so I could have a place to talk to myself really, so now I need to explain it a little more. When I blog, it's me saying exactly what I think, and not caring about who reads it. I want it to stay that way, so please don't abuse it. "Inside my head" really fits I think. I don't have much to say today, slept in a long time, got up, read my book, ate, and now I'm sitting here on the computer. I know, boring right? Right. Oh, I finished reading Nineteen Minutes today by Jodi Picoult. Wow, way to change the way things should be!!! I won't ruin it for anyone so that's all I can say. But I will say its amazing and everyone should read it!!! Ok back on the blog topic, I thought of something else. I never have considered myself much as a writer per se, but I know I rock the house at essays!!! I don't know where I learned to write filler but I'm really good at it, weird eh? Anyway, I have been "told" I'm good at stories too, but I think they turn out horrible and hate them. Ok, now I have officially run out of anymore to say. So, I will back tomorrow (maybe) to continue on my blogging!!! Night everybody.

Friday, November 12, 2010

I'm Afraid.

I went skating today. Wow. Well, I went with my friend (no name =P) and she used to figure skate and made me look really bad. I can't skate. I never learned, and it's one of those things that I kind of expected to be good at because I'm flexible and have good balance, and lots of people can do it without being taught. So it really surprised me when I struggled with it. So, today I was trying to get my friend to teach me, and it went ok, I guess. I was really scared. First of all, one of the last times I skated I broke my wrist, which it's not like that especially scares me, but now I know that could happen. And, ice is really hard when your coming fast. (I also have a big bruise on my knee from curling). Wait, hold up. How come I'm not scared of ice in curling, but am in skating? Must be the surface area that my whole body weight is on... haha sure I will go with that ;) Anyway, when I'm skating, it's like I can't try anything cause I don't want to fall. And I see all these little kids that keep getting up, and I find it hard to mimic them. Why try when it is something I can just ignore for the rest of my life? I guess, it's more of a challenge? yeah I guess.
        So I think this post has turned more into from I'm afraid of skating to I need to overcome my fears. I like skating because it's a fear that shouldn't make me afraid and that is reasonable to overcome. My other fears are stuff like waterfalls, killer whales, birds (you know I'm an odd child when). For the most part, I don't have to be ok with those things (ok, maybe birds...) but with skating, I can learn to do it. Now, I'm sure I will be more comfortable with a helmet and knee pads =P but I think it will be awesome when I learn how.

How to change it: (sorry about the underline, anyone know how to fix it?)Everyone has fears. Everyone has stuff that there afraid to do, even if they don't admit it to anyone, even themselves. I think it is really good for yourself as a growing individual to do things that scare you. I hope that eventually, skating won't be something I'm afraid to do. I'm afraid to push myself because if I fall hard enough I will give up. So this is my challenge for you. Do something that scares you. Like really scares you. Not something that is bad or dangerous, like bungee jumping off a cliff without being trained or anything, but something like skating or swimming or going down a waterslide. I dare you =)

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Remembrance Day

As you probably know, today is Remembrance Day. November 11th, 2010. Yesterday, at school, we had a service in which I played in the band. I know what your thinking "oh my gosh she's a band nerd too!" Yep. That's me. And in our school, we get everyone from grades 1-10 in the gym and then the high school band plays and then the grade 4-5 show choir sings. And, it was kind of weird, because I've never been that close to crying during the service. It wasn't that it was a sad, but I don't know, maybe I'm just growing up. I remember singing in the choir, we sang In Flanders Field which is the poem to music. Yesterday, they sang a song that basically said "If you remember anything about me, remember my song". I think that I got emotional because here were 30 ten year olds singing words they didn't understand, but were so powerful. Basically, it was about how someone who had been shot in the war was trying to tell the people who knew them to remember what it felt like to touch them and listen to them and don't ever forget and I'm rambling now because it was so sad!!!! =( Remembrance day is important because so many people died and so many families were broken to give us the freedom we have today. I think that is the greatest gift anyone could give us. People usually focus on the number of deaths or the amount of soldiers that didn't come home, but the list is way longer than that. What about the men and teens that lost limbs and are permanently disabled? What about the ones that wake in the middle of the night screaming because they had a flashback to the time when they were in war. And it's not just the men that suffered. There were thousands of grieving women who lost nights of sleep waiting for news about there husbands, sons, and even daughter. Women had to take over jobs that they had no idea about, just to be able to keep the town thriving. Families had to live through rations and weren't allowed much of things like sugar and had to rely on things like preservatives. Remembrance day is an important day to all Canadians and should be honoured and treated with the respect it deserves.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Uniqueness =)

I think being unique is my current life goal. I mean, I think it is something that you can learn to be, but some people are born with it. Maybe. I'm not quite sure. But it's those kind of people that are REALLY unique that catch my attention. I'm one of those kind of people that loves, like, really watching people, and understanding them completely. I know, it's weird. But anyways, I'm just going to explain some of the unique things that I find amazing. First of all, my science teacher, is amazing. And if you know who I'm talking about, you'll understand. She know exactly how much of her personal life to tell the class to make it interesting, but not too much that you don't learn anything. She has flaming red hair and is the most interesting person, honestly. Her personality bubbles over anything she's saying, and you can't help but listen to every word. THAT is a perfect example of the person I want to be. My social teacher, on the other hand, is equally as interesting, but it doesn't come out as strong. These are the kind of things I think about, like "Why not?" "Why can I ignore her but not my science teacher". I think it's in the voice and the way you speak. My social teacher is a little more withdrawn, to the point I wonder about things that might have happened in her childhood to cause that. Yeah, I know, I'm weird. But, her background is fantastic. She grew up in the mountains, and went to a school that taught both English and French, or English muffins and French fries as she said it. Then, apparently, her biggest challenge in grade school was switching from a French fry to an English muffin. And then, when she was out of high school she spent her summer sleeping in a tipi teaching native rituals to summer camp kid?!?! Yeah, I know, AMAZING background. See how I spend my school days? I get in trouble for that sometimes though, because I have my teachers figured out to a tee, then if they ever make me mad, I know the EXACT way for revenge! =) Not that that happens much...... hehe. Now I'm off topic.... right, uniqueness.  Now this will give me a challenge... because I don't exactly know. I wish someone would teach me how to be unique, because I don't exactly know.
How to change it:   Now this will give me a challenge... because I don't exactly know. I wish someone would teach me how to be unique, because I have very little idea. (Oh and by the way, the computer won't let me get this off underline.... lol) What I do know, though, is that people I pick out as being unique are alway happy. Like they never get down about anything. A trick to that, is for every negative comment, add a positive comment. Another thing I have found, is they don't care about what people think. Now, if someone followed this ALL the time, they would probably become more weird than unique. But, I think about stuff like what they say, act, do, stuff like that. So, I have to sign off now. I'm sorry for how long this is and that it's underlined!!! Luv you all and come back for next time!!

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

"Friendly" Competitions

So, upon request, I am going to bring this topic up. Now, I know that it might not happen to everyone, I am going to bring up my opinion. Now, you have to understand that all of my friends are nerds. Like BIG nerds. And our friend group is potentially like 14 people. Now, within that friend group we break into smaller groups like school nerds, manga nerds, glee/drama nerds and so on. Anyways.... so I hate getting tests back, for one reason. First of all, I have been like the "smart child" for like ever, and my friends have not. To the point that it bothers me because peoples greatest achievements are getting higher than me on a test. So when we get a test back, I have people, IN MY FRIEND GROUP comparing answers with me, and I get a "ha I beat you" or a "well I won't tell you my mark cause it's none of your beeswax". SO FRUSTRATING =/ . I'm sure this happens with other people to, whether it may  be sports or make up or skateboarding or whatever, the problem is it still happens. A lot. And for people like me, that just makes me so angry. Why do I have to live up to other peoples standards and always be conscious of what people are doing? Really, I don't care who I beat or anything, I'm just curious how well I did in comparison. I honestly don't keep track or anything.

How To Change it: So, at the end of every blog I'm going to have a section like this to try to raise awareness about whatever I am talking about. So, for this topic, I think this could be changed by being aware of what your saying to people and how people might take that. Because, I know this has happened to me before that I could say something and it could offend someone and I won't realize it until it's too late to even apologize. So basically that underlying point here is to be aware of what you think, because thoughts turn into words, words into habits, habits into character, and character into destiny. (I saw that on a poster once.... great line!)

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Second Attempt

So, this is my second attempt at starting a blog. Don't laugh, it's harder than it looks. What made me do it? Well, I have been thinking lately. Like about big stuff, and that fills up a lot of thought space. I would much rather save it in a computer hard drive than in my head. This blog is free to anyone that wants to "follow" me, cause isn't that what they're for? Ummm ya that's about all I have to say. If you have any questions just leave a comment.

Look! I'm being all computer geeky!

Words on My Blog!

Wordle: Blogging